So “fuck”.  It’s one of those words that can be so many things.  The versatility of this word can describe from love to hate and can be used by used in most grammatical groups (i.e. verb, adjective, adverb, noun, etc.).  It adds a certain cache to a conversation and doesn’t have to carry the typical sexual connotation.  I curse like a sailor.  And as much as I try to do the “lady thing” and not curse and no matter how hard I try not to.  It just escapes my lips.  As much as I use it as transitive verb, “You know Diddy fucked Cassie” or as an adjective “Tom Brady is fucking gorgeous” or lastly an adverb, “He is a fucking douche”, I have not used it while fighting with a significant other as in “Go fuck yourself”.   I just find it beyond offensive.  I’ve never used it in a demeaning way to others.  Even in the most heated of arguments, I’ve never resorted to “Go fuck yourself”. Anyways last night, after a heated exchange with someone over text.  I assumed that he was drunk for his remarks and so I told him to call me when he's sober.  He then replies with a "fuck you, I wasn't drunk", etc.   Now, I have that fiery Latina blood in me, so needless to say I was fuming.  Even with the flames coming out of my mind, they were extinguished and my feelings were hurt.  Me and this guy have never gone that way with each other, no matter what the issue but then he had to resort to the “fuck you” and not even face to face or on the phone, in a FUCKING text message.  I just couldn’t believe it.  We’re not young kids any more are we really resorting to that?  Really, just like that?  As much as I wanted to just go off on the comment, I was not about to dignify any of his sordid remarks with a vapid response.  Then I thought to myself don’t get mad, get better.  You are not going to tell me to fuck myself.  I'm not that chick.  And if you think I am you are seriously disturbed.  I don't get talked to like that and the fact that you had to have a text message do your dirty work is just lame.  I've always afforded the highest of respect to this person and now he wants to show out.  Fine.  I'm bowing out.  One day later and still no apology.  At first I thought I was being overly sensitive about the situation but then I realized I don’t accept that behavior and I’m not going to make this one-time slide.  I think this guy knew that it was too far but didn’t care to appease his point. I know I’m not perfect and could say some shit but to the point of a “fuck you”, no.  I don’t think so.  This guy wouldn’t use the “fuck you” on other girls but you want to use it on me.  Insulting.  So take your time to think about the fact when you say “Fuck you” that while you may be doing it to get it off your chest you are really fucking yourself, because this chick is just not going to put up with that shit.

ps: Ray Allen I love you.